Homesick

I never thought that I'd be saying the words "I'm homesick." Don't get me wrong I love my family and I love being at home but I also love being busy and the result is me never being home.... but now that i'm far away from my home and from my parents, and my dogs. I miss them so much. I knew i'd miss them but I never knew how much until now. It makes me so sad when I see friends in virginia saying theyre going to visit friends at other schools or going home for a football game. I wish I could have that. I wish i could go home and sleep in my own bed with my dog. I wish I could hang out with Katie and all my high school babies. I want to go to maryland to visit Justin. Every time I think about going home, tears are brought to my eyes. You know that saying "Distance makes the heart grow stronger" well that's how I feel. I can assure you that I will probably start crying the second that I see Justin, katie or any of my high school friends like Sydney or Riane.

The thought of being back in chesapeake seriously brings me to tears. I miss it so much. I miss the familiar faces and the wonderful community. I miss the comfort. I use to complain about change. I use to complain about moving. Well not this time, this time it was my choice except I didnt make the final decision God put it on my heart to come to UNT. I love the campus and the school and the people around me. From the beginning i knew deep down that it was where I wanted to go. The only thing that was stopping me from making the decision was my fear of change and the unfamiliar. All through high school, I craved change but when I finally got it i hated it. Looking back, I know it was all apart of God's plan for me here and now.

I can't do this on my own. And honestly, every week i think what the heck am I doing here and think about packing up my bags and transferring to VCU to be closer to everyone and everything familiar to me. I don't know why God has called me here but i want to find out and I don't want to give up on His plan. Everyday I ask for guidance and just comfort because it's so scary being here.

On another note, last week I went to the first UNT Young Life Club ever! I couldn't stop smiling as i sang Don't stop believing at the top of my lungs. Just something about how Young Life does things that hits home in my heart. We had about 20 people there but it was still awesome to be apart of. I think the highlight of my night was watching my friend Carleigh experience club for the first time, she loved every minute of it and I felt so honored to watch her experience it.

Prayer requests: Please pray that when I'm feeling homesick, that I might be reminded of why I came to texas in the first place and how much I've missed being close to my grandparents and other close relatives. Please pray over Justin and I as we work through the beginning stages of a long distance relationship. Pray over loving my sorority sisters with a genuine and bold heart. Pray for balance in my schedule, and for health I'm trying to stay on top of this cold that hasn't quite gotten me yet. Pray over Hickory High school, they have there first club of the year on Monday Night!